a regular soft hearted human

Hilang punca, hidup kosong!

Tiba - tiba saja rasa macam dunia gelap... Masa depan cerah yang diimpikan sebelum ini rasa terlalu jauh untuk dicapai... Terlalu jauh. Tidak dapat bayangkan cara untuk menguraikan kelemahan serta ketakutan yang selalu menyelubungi diri. Hidup bagaikan tiada arah tuju. Tiba - tiba rasa seperti sampan yang terputus tali, menghanyut ke tengah lautan. Tidak tahu apa yang ingin digapai.

Sambung Master kononnya. Ia sekadar COP FAMOUS yang boleh dibanggakan di kampung tetapi kisah di sebaliknya bagaikan kain yang koyak rabak. Indah dan megahnya jenama MASTER. Kisah sebaliknya yang rapuh dan reput tiada yang ketahuinya.

Entah bagaimana untuk mengira satu semula sebagai permulaan untuk meniti cita - cita. Ke mana cita - cita sebelum ini yang mekar dan teguh di hati... Entah ke mana hilangnya jiwa muda itu. Apa yang harus digapai sekarang? Teringin untuk bejiwa kental dan melawan segala arus kehidupan yang boleh mematangkan lagi diri ini....

homesick

painful... no energy.... suddently feel the journey is too long....very long... I cant see my future, I'm not clear with my ambition and my destiny... The road is too long... And too far... When can I reach my destination... OUR LOVE will bring me.... Love from family and people who I love so much...

Mak, I miss you so much... feel so painful... Start from tonight, i will sleep alone... No more your hugs and your hand around my waist. Mak, you are the best mommy in the world. I'm sorry, sometime I'm quite rude with you but I never mean to it, and I always regret of my unpolite manners and unmatured mind. I never mean to hurt or see you sad. I love you. I need your LOVE and your GUIDE always... I'm waiting next month will very quickly approach. I miss you mommy.... Miss our family... Miss all of you.... Miss so much.... Very much! See you next month mak... September is coming soon. Miss you ~ (I hope to be strong!!!)

I dont know how to help him out. He is crying now, I can noticed it when I phone him a minute ago... He quite hurt. I know. His convo, his big day but mean nothing to his family? Maybe this is what in his mind... When seeing his tears, I can feel how hurt is he now. I want to help, but how? Just give him mental support... I'm so helpless ~

Tomorrow is his birthday. But seem everthing going to be bad... He is unhappy. What should I do...